an emotional rollercoaster

i'm overwhelmed!!!
with the trust, the expectation, the big opportunity that has come my way. nothing's really that concrete yet, but slowly things are taking shape. i'm overwhelmed because i did not expect for this to happen, nor did i think in my wildest dreams that it will happen early. i'm humbled at the same time scared what might happen. but for now, i can't seem to get over this feeling. i pray for guidance, i pray that i will get to do my best and make a difference. i can't divulge the full details yet, but my head is spinning every time i think about it. i'm getting diZzY!

bored...
sometimes i get bored of myself. i was reflecting on my life, good things are happening and i'm thankful, yet there are times like i'm missing out on a lot. i find myself wanting to do more outside work. hehe. i want to travel, i want to learn a sport, i want to do more and enjoy life. i've been cooking every weekend, which is a little bit therapeutic and at the same time fattening! haha. i want to get a makeover, go shopping, go outside the country, i have a lot of things on head. i think i'm taking life too seriously...hahaha! help me please!

Tired...
physically, i've been feeling really exhausted each and every day. work is not physically demanding, but i find myself feeling really tired when i go home from work. my back hurts a lot- i've been wanting to get a massage, but i've been putting it off since my budget is already running low. i spent the last two weekends at home, sleeping! this feeling sucks, i lack energy...precious energy that i need to be able to do things that i've been planning to. *sigh*

i'm an emotional rollercoaster once again.....it's making me sick, i'm about to throw up!