venting

i find it so hard to see my loved one suffer the same hurt and pain as i did. no, this can't be happening again...it is like watching yourself in the big screen, only the characters and setting are different, but the plot is all the same. its like a bad dream happening all over again. *SIGH* if only i could protect my loved one, i would; if only i could shield that person from all the heartaches and pains, i would; but the choice has been made and there's nothing else i could do but lend my support, besides i might be robbing my loved one of the most important lessons on love and life that God wants to impart during these times.

it is so difficult because i know these people, i see them, i'm somehow friends with them too, people you have learned to accept and trust..... there are times that inside my head i'd go and confront them, make them feel all the pain they have caused, i want to humiliate them in front of everyone and tell everybody that these people betray their friend's trust, these people are liars, these people are scum bags! urgh! they even pop in my dreams...that's how bad i feel about them. if only i could really do that..... maybe i could.....but then im not really the type who'd go down to their pitiful level.....im so disgusted at these people.